I sat there watching it flutter ever so slightly… down, up, down, up… Brief inhale, long exhale. Quick to capture the air, slow to let it go. So soft and sweet I almost held my breath for fear the motion of his chest would stop. All would be paralyzed. I’d panic. Remember to beat, my heart.
I thought I heard the rain again. It’s pitch black and I don’t remember the forecast predicting anything other than 60s but it’s raining. The light clapping sound on my roof and the slapping off my backyard concrete, proof. So I decided to bring my trusty laptop outside and talk to you. 😊
They say a baby will shake up your life and my little man did just that- in more ways than one :) I always knew the possibility that even before he got here, there would be tests as to how strong the two of us would be together. Well, we made it, but not without a few bumps and bruises and nights of making deals with God to keep my baby safe no matter what my body threw at me.
With any change in life, the one constant affected is mood. Our feelings- joy and heartache, confidence and uncertainty, optimism and defeat. It’s a rollercoaster. Some experience a Disneyland sort of ride… long and winding with a few jerks and bumps. While others hold on for Magic Mountain…
I came across the video while perusing Facebook around midnight. You know, wasting time when I should be getting valuable sleep before an active next day with my son, and I saw the title- Care and Cure 2014. I’ve wanted to go to the Care and Cure benefit for a few years but haven’t put... Continue Reading →
Number 2. No, not THAT number 2 ;) but a second baby. When my husband and I had our first, we said we’d try again when Nolan turned a year old. Here we are, D-day, and I can’t “pull the trigger." One, I don’t know how I’ll be able to love another one as much... Continue Reading →
(Know that I realize I’m very fortunate to be able to go through a pregnancy and these are my experiences/thoughts. Everyone is different.) They say a baby will shake up your life and my little man did just that- in more ways than one :) I always knew it would be a possibility that even before... Continue Reading →
I wrote something called “The Thread” a while ago, and I was reminded of it last night before I went to bed. I was perusing Facebook (the world’s largest time suck) and reviewing the day’s news feed. I came across “Prayers for Kylie,” a page I religiously look for as it follows the journey of a... Continue Reading →
When I was told to write about Motherhood and the lighter side of Epilepsy, I thought- what two topics could be further apart? Then I decided to just type and see where it takes me. I am a first time mom to an almost 2-year-old boy who is very outgoing, talkative, inquisitive, and loves attention…... Continue Reading →